Rome, romance…They would seem to go hand-in-hand. Taking a look at the multitude of tourists who are perma-grinning all over the place all the time here, perhaps they do. For me, romance is something I am choosing do without (as mentioned in a posting a couple of days back).
It isn’t just the need to focus on my well-being. It is simply the craziness (to me) of it all. I have found that dating doesn’t seem to quite exist here. Many people either seem to be looking for an interesting fling/story…or they are ready to have you cooking and cleaning their houses (notice, I didn’t say marry…because, for some that is not quite what they have in mind). At this point, you may be wondering, D, why on earth are you thinking about this?
(I was attempting to find a video on attraction. I found Yanni instead. Makes me smile :))
The answer is that I went to buy some tangerines at the fruit stand today. What? Yes, it all happened at the fruit stand, where I was openly solicited by a handsome twenty-two year old, who was being actively encouraged by his older brother to ask me out.
Anyway, after laughing off the matter and abruptly extricating myself from the situation, I went home and began to think about my “dating” experiences in Rome.
And honestly, I haven’t really “dated” here in Rome. I have met some very interesting people. Half of whom were too young and looking for a mother/caregiver/advisor person. The other half were older and looking for someone to dominate and exoticize. Suffice to say, I saw through all of that easily enough, and have thus remained single.
More importantly, however, these experiences and this episode made me realize that I needed to ask myself a serious question: That is, just what is it within me that is attracting these types of people? After all, there must be something that I am seeking to have so many of the same types of people come my way. I am quite positive that there are many eligible, single, socially adaptable, independent, successful, internally and externally attractive people out there in the world. So, what exactly is going on with me?
Some people may say, Well, D, you are a strong woman. And strong attracts weak. And to those people, I will say, perhaps you are right, but I am willing to wait for the universe to present me with someone who can recognize the balance of strength and weakness within himself or herself and in others.
So, Mr. Young Fruit Stand Man, thanks but no thanks…I’ve learned this lesson too many times already. 🙂
Until Next Time!
P.S. Excellent quote I found on ViewOnBuddhism.org:
“When we accept the way things are we are able to love everything and everybody. When we are not able to accept even one thing in this world right now, then how could we ever develop boundless love? Lack of acceptance is conflict. Conflict is pain. It is psychological pain. It is a spiritual illness. As long as our hearts are tormented by that pain, we do not have the strength to give our heart to anything and because of that it is impossible to bring about inner awakening. Enlightenment, you see, is just another name for boundless love.
It is almost impossible to practice loving-kindness towards all living beings without addressing, in a meaningful way, the innumerable problems arising in our own lives. It is a contradiction, you see. It does not work. If our heart is tormented because we are not able to accept things the way they are, then it is impossible to open our heart. It is impossible to let go of all of our defenses and embrace others. Therefore we have to constantly practice and deepen our awareness. We have to remind ourselves to accept things as they are. This is pretty much what the teachings called Mind Training are all about. Mind Training in Buddhism is about carrying those perspectives and even reciting slogans, phrases like “I shall accept the way things are.” Anam Thubten, No Self, No Problem
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