Typically, I spend my time reading, knitting, doing crossword puzzles, watching old British comedies and cartoons. You know, all that typically sexy stuff. 😉
Well, I have just completed reading Jackee Holder’s “Be your own best life coach” and decided to try one of her suggestions, i.e. making a vision board.
I will tell you that I’ve been making a valiant attempt at creating my vision board. I say valiant, because my verbal Italian is not so great and trying to find the right types of magazines at the newsstands here in Rome feels like a mini-trip through hell for me.
This is partly due to the fact that all the magazines are apparently kept… sealed. Yes, that’s right. Here in Rome, you need to know what you want. And there really isn’t such a thing as customer service here…. So, don’t expect help. If you get it, then give thanks to the universe. Of course, this is just my personal experience… You may have a different one if you visit. So, keep an open mind.
There is no flipping through and perusing the interesting pictures and glancing at the articles here. And honestly, my Italianish is so not helpful for saying “I need a magazine with diverse representations of people. You know, women, men, children. Perhaps even different ethnicities and races might be nice.”
I’ve been offered, however, everything else from cooking to needlework. As much as I am a fan of all of that, it certainly wasn’t what I asked for.
At this point, some of you might be wondering what is a vision board. The easy answer is that it is a visual representation of the goals/dreams you have for your life.
More recently, vision boards have been associated with the principle of the Law of Attraction (Remember The Secret?), which basically emphasizes the point that what we choose to focus upon in our lives is what we in turn receive. That is, if you focus on what is negative, then the more negative experiences come into your life, because you are attracting it to you. The same is applied to the positive. This definition is highly simplistic and I would recommend that you do your own research on the topic if you are interested in learning more.
Regardless of your belief in the Law of Attraction, cutting images out of newspapers/magazines and pasting them on posterboard or whatever sturdy paper available has been practiced by many artists, art educators, art therapists, life coaches and many an adolescent girl for some time now (of course children and adolescent boys too!)
As an art therapist, I see the process of creating art and the final product as inherently self-exploratory and therapeutic. Thus, it is possible to gain a true understanding of what one desires in life by engaging in such a process as collaging. Enough said.
So, back to my vision board. Simply, it’s not happening. Although I am surrounded by many cut images, and have carefully selected music playing in the background to promote my most creative self… it’s simply not on. By now, you may be wondering why I am rambling on about this vision board thing… and why it is so important to me.
Well, as I mentioned above, I’ve been searching for magazines filled with lots of pictures with people. In essence, I am looking for the images that would go in my Love/Relationships section. That’s right. I seemed to have some block against this. This brings me to my next topic.
Love games & mechanics…
Rome is a city of romance as evidenced by the people who make it a point to makeout next to me in the metro during the day. I mean, really… I am the last person to have a problem with PDA. Nor do I have a problem with people who wish to share their personal version of Lady Gaga‘s Love Games at night (again in the metro). Hey, I really don’t mind seeing if someone is or isn’t wearing underwear as I make my way home to knit…. No problem! 😉
What all of this (including my vision board quest) is revealing to me is that perhaps I find romantic relationships somewhat threatening… (Yes, it can happen to a therapist too ;)) I have somehow managed to put up a wall/block in response to the emotion love and had not realized it until I tried to make my vision board.
Being single again has forced me to examine my past relationships. That is, what I did well and what I need to improve. This process allowed me to recognize that I had one specific issue that was truly interpersonally and intrapersonally crippling for me. Even though apparently, some friends were already quite aware… as one said to me a month or so ago,
“D., you’ve really got to work on your professional handicap. It’s really a liability.”
And I wonder why no one ever to told me before that I was a blatant “love mechanic.”
That’s right. I spent my time in my relationships trying to help resolve the issues of my significant other perhaps to my own detriment and definitely to the detriment of the relationship.
Even after my friend had made the above statement to me, I still had no idea what he was talking about. It took reading Lisa Helmanis’ book “Master Dating” and coming across the term “love mechanic” for me to really get what he was trying to say… That is, if I ever intend to have a romantic relationship of any kind again, I need to give up the behaviour of holding daily therapy sessions with my significant other AND gently suggest outside therapy. 😉
Well, it’s a new year and I’ve got my vision board project with an allotted love/relationship section. So, who knows what will happen…
Until next time!